The Dangers of Self

I've been in a funk. I've been in a funk for a couple of weeks and I couldn't figure out why I've been so funky... until recently.

I'm normally very connected to my place and my role, despite how much I may disagree with what it is. I have developed trust in what I'm shown and told during my shamanic journeys. It took a while for me to admit that I'd been shown and told things by beings in the upper and lower realms. I wasn't comfortable in sharing that I'd discussed things with an animal or an angel.

However, I overcame that fear of sharing, on most accounts, and have realized that what I'd been told and shown was dead-on accurate. I say this because some of the things I've been made privvy to has either happened or has been revealed in other ways to those I know.

So, back to the funk...

A  few weeks ago, I met another Reiki practitioner. We agreed to perform Reiki for each other. So far, so good. I performed Reiki first... I also use Shamanic practices, although the receiver doesn't notice. It is a part of my intuitive process... The receiver later informed me that she left my session feeling wonderful, invigorated, free of pain and stress. I performed my services for just over an hour. I always leave a session in sweat, as the energy flows through me...

Later that week, I arrived at the location of the Reiki Master that I had helped. I was very interested in receiving a powerful energetic infusion.

It was an interesting experience. I didn't judge... the intention of the giver was there. Intention to help and heal is paramount. Yet, the combination of smudging, then the sudden clanging of Tibetan bells behind my head and later the painful massage of my left shoulder was all a bit out of my expectations. In addition, the commercials that came on the Pandora Radio feed were rather disconcerting. Ok, they were funny.

Here is what I didn't expect... I seem to have taken on negativity during my session. Now, I always protect myself against negative attacks. Yet, somewhere along the way, I missed a beat. I'm an empath, I take upon myself the negativity inherent in others whether directed to me or not.
So, somewhere during this session, I took upon the fears and confusion that my Reiki giver was experiencing.

I learned something very important after a week of wondering what the hell happened to me...

There are many lightworkers and Reiki practitioners out there. Yet, in order to properly administer lightwork healing, the intention must be pure. There must be no sense of 'self' present in the giver... Anything negative can be transferred to the receiver, without the giver ever being aware. A single thought, if negative, is capable of being given to others/

Everything is energy. Thoughts, intentions, actions... and if you focus on those thoughts and intentions then you can unknowingly harm the very ones you want to help.

As for those wanting to help using lightwork, I salute you. However, remember that every thought counts. Set your 'self' aside and use yourself as an empty vessel to transmit the energy.

Namaste.