Hello, Goodbye, Hello.

Writing has always been my outlet. It has been my way to express myself when my mind is working overtime but my lips refuse to move. 

I've used my written words to make other angry, to make others laugh, to help others relate to another imperfect soul. I've also used writing to ease personal pain while at the same time bringing hurt and pain to others, though unintentionally. I'll go further to say that I distanced myself from my children during a traumatic time in not only my life, but theirs, through my writings.

There is no taking back what has been written. I can't really apologize for what I'd written because it was what I was feeling at the time. I can, though, apologize for not thinking about the ramifications of my writings, ramblings and otherwise bewildering moments of clarity that flowed from my fingertips in the wee hours of the morning.

I'm a simple man. Don't misunderstand, I'm intelligent, almost to a fault. I rarely speak about the things that I understand and know, having not ever studied the subjects. I do not even understand myself when I know things without reason. I've always counted those occasions as 'luck' or guesses.

This is where I begin to say goodbye. It is with mixed emotions that I use the word 'goodbye.' I'm not saying that I'm leaving anyone, or this earth. No, I'm saying 'goodbye' to what are sure to be a number of people who know me and will not understand what I have recently been through, encountered and thus, altered my thinking. 

I'm still the smartass, snarky person that I was when I was writing yelpsfromthecloset.blogspot.com. but I'm a bit, no, a great deal different as a creation.

I know, that makes no sense. Let me begin this explanation of discovery by reiterating that by no means whatsoever am I a religious person. I traveled that road for many, many years. I am completely against organized religion. I believe that religion is simply a way to a means. It's a way for men to exploit beliefs postulated by other men (men being a general term), to obtain power, wealth and control of the masses. 

That sounds harsh. But, I'll now say that I have a very concrete belief that Jesus walked among men.

Think a minute. I'll wait. After all, if you've read any of my yelps blogs you're thinking, "What the Hell?"

I'm sure to lose friends because of this post. But, at the same time, I'm excited at the enlightened ones that will become my friends. 

Although I didn't realize it at the time, my awakening began with less-than-biblical standards. I've been awakening for quite awhile and have been aware of other realms and, yes, past lives, since I was a child. It wasn't until I started Usui Reiki (Energy Therapy) classes that I began to understand what was happening to me. That was more than three years ago.

Fast forward to the last three to four months. I became a certified Reiki Master Practitioner. I have an understanding of Quantum Mechanics that has been becoming clearer since I first saw trees made up as a series of numbers a few years earlier. I'm able to walk past people and sense their problems, moods and general state of mind. I'm am empath. That trait is brutal at times.

While I've actively implemented Reiki in my life on a daily basis, both for myself and for others, I've also been drawn into Shamanic practices.Thank you, Pam. You're my greatest blessing and my best half.

The two modalities, Reiki and Shamanism, interlap. They also both interlap with Meditation. Consciousness is energy. Thoughts are energy. Your reclining chair is energy. Think about it. If you understand that correlation, you'll remain a friend. If not, well, one day you hopefully will understand.

Again, I'm not a religious person. Not in the least. That said, I've had two powerful encounters with the person we know as Jesus. I'll say this, I've downplayed Jesus for quite some time. Son of God? Pffft. I've also made jokes about Jesus as he relates to religion and the 'only' way to God and what we consider to be Heaven.

Turns out, it's okay that I made those jokes. Jesus was, and is, a form of pure energy, able to heal and do things that people living in the everyday world couldn't conceive. In other words, he was no different that me, or you. And, as he relayed to me, he wasn't trying to create a way of thinking, but of a way of being.. a way that we are all capable of achieving through enlightenment and knowing that we are are interconnected by energy. It is how we use that energy that defines us.

If you're still with me, congratulations. You've stepped on the path. Watch out for the roots and potholes. This path is treacherous and will cost you parts of yourself. But those parts aren't needed.

I'd rather stand in awe of the messages and experiences that I receive through my energy work, Shamanic journeys and daily syncronicities while others mock me and label me than miss a second standing in the presence of Divinity, whatever you consider Divinity to be. I spend each day knowing that my being on this earth has a Divine purpose. It's like a metamorphosis. I see the results of this ongoing metamorphosis each and every day.

As I say, 'Hello', to those who seek what I have found and nurture, I sadly say 'Goodbye' to those who close their eyes and soul to the divine. If I do what I'm tasked with doing, I'll be saying, 'Hello' again soon.

Namaste.